HELLO INTERNET WANDERERS!
I haven’t talked to you guys in actually forever and damn I miss it a lot.
Things have been really busy lately between homework, swimming, violin, singing, and lots of drama at school. I feel like I stay away from drama pretty well, but lately there’s been a lot of it happening. And, like most people, i hate it. I honestly don’t understand how people find it entertaining or fun and stuff 😂 It’s just tiring.
A small piece of this whole situation is that I’m changing. Or at least, my appearance is. My trademark kinda thing has always been the not caring-ness of me. The clothes I have worn for the past 2 years of my life have been super comfy, low effort, and laid back. But a while ago, I went shopping and bought some clothes that are still super comfy and require minimal effort, but look a bit more put together. I was super happy about it, it was kinda nice to know that I looked put together compared to my previous looks which were literally just randomly thrown together.
I didn’t think it would be much of a problem, but a couple of my close friends haven’t really been liking this. I guess they thought I was majorly changing, when really, I’m the same crazy weirdo I was yesterday. My appearance may have changed a bit, but who I am inside hasn’t and it’s quite sad that some of my closest friends don’t quite get that.
People always tell me to express myself, to be myself, that they love me. But the second I made my own descicion and changed the most temporary aspect of me (my appearance), everyone got all freaked out. Someone’s always got something to say about me. It’s as though I have a responsibility to please them. I know I can’t please everyone but it’s still sad when your closest friends won’t accept you because of something as petty as clothes.
I’ve always loved school, like full on adored it. This has got to be the first time I haven’t really been the happiest about going to school. It’s just much easier to hide from it than face it I guess…..
Anyways, I’m going to try and get back into blogging. It’s been a while and I certainly miss it. I still have tons of posts planned out and everything, but I just can’t seem to find the time/motivation to post them.
Sorry about this more serious post, I just had to rant somewhere 😂 anyways, let’s chat dudios. Do you guys have people in your life who always want to have a say in it? What do you guys do about that? How do you find the balance between being yourself and compromising for others? Are you guys drowning in work like me? DID YOU GUYS WATCH DAN AND PHILS EASTER BAKING VIDEO? Let me know in the comments below, I could really do with a talk with u guys =)
C Y B Y E
P.S. IT’S ALMOST MY BIRTHDAY I FEEL SO OLD WAHHH
P.P.S. A while ago it was my one year blog-aversary (is that how you spell it 😂) HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIFE PUT SIMPLEEEEE
P.P.P.S. gosh I feel like a lil kid with all these p.s.s 😂😂